Life of a freelancer
So lockdown 2.0 has officially started here in England. How are you all feeling about the new restrictions being put in place across the whole of the UK? Safe to say I am confused as hell. But I am masking up, going out less and just getting used to what is a new normal so it seems. The BIG difference for me this lockdown is that I finally have more clarity in my life. Yes, this pandemic and everything it has chucked at me has brought me more inner peace and direction on where I am going in life - strange that isn’t it?
The future of my business
Like most businesses, our futures are up in the air. Now, mine may be safe in the sense I work with online-focused femprenuers, and that the demand for my services has increased majorly. However, I have been looking at a new direction in which to take Aesthetic Roots. Don’t panic, my services aren’t changing, but they are diversifying. I have had little confidence in my work over the years and I have finally told myself - I AM LUSH AT WHAT I DO. I think a lot of people need to start telling themselves that more. Because chances are, you are beyond amazing at what you do in your field. So come next year, my lil’ biz will be growing, changing and offering more of the good stuff for you small biz owners out there.
What you don’t see at home..
Okay, I’ll be honest. Things at home have been a bit of a rollercoaster lately. I ain’t ashamed to admit this. Bickering, self-doubt, terrible toddler tantrums, little things getting to me, I’m most family homes have been like this. But it came to a head recently when I got triggered by a few dishes not being done, and boy I let rip. I cried. I screamed. I just had a build-up of stuff in my head that I couldn’t process. And so did my partner. The funny thing about it all it was over nothing but we fixed so much because of those 3 cups not being cleaned. We dealt with insecurities, our mental health was discussed and overall, we had a good cry at how we somehow came through a lot of shit the past few months and still want to hug each other at the end of a long, tiring day. Again, we just doubted our own worth. Leading to us doubting each other.
And that’s just it folks, many of us doubt our self-worth. We doubt our own capabilities. Why? We are amazing at what we do in life. We are amazing at being there for others and recognising our own flaws (and in turn, fixing them). So please, if you take one thing from this post it is this:
KNOW YOUR WORTH.
Until next time, stay safe and keep being your authentic self!
Rachel - Aesthetic Roots VA xo
